Courage to Slow Down

When God answered my prayer to work for a different company, I was very happy and excited. I had been praying for it and this year I just felt that it was the right time. And indeed, God confirmed it. You can read more about that here.

My first few weeks in the new company were just refreshing. It started slow so I got a lot of time to learn and read about the company. As weeks continued to pass, I felt that the pace was still the same. It’s a pace that I was not used to. And it became a struggle for me. Most of us struggle with busyness in our day to day work. I did not know that slowing down would also become a struggle for me.

My heart started to complain. I started to grumble. In all honesty, there was no reason to grumble at all. During those weeks, my mind kept telling me to be grateful because I am very blessed and I am in a very good place. But you see, I entertained discontent in my heart. It was like that for weeks. I was already thinking of not extending my contract. I wanted a working environment that was the same as my previous company. I was struggling to adjust and embrace change.

I became stubborn for those weeks, playing deaf with God’s Word until He had to deal with me. He led me to Numbers 11.

“…but for a whole month—until it comes out of your nostrils and you loathe it—because you have rejected the Lord, who is among you, and have wailed before him, saying, ‘Why did we ever leave Egypt?'” – Numbers 11:20

“Now the people complained about their hardships in the hearing of the Lord, and when he heard them his anger was aroused.” Numbers 11:1

Those verses described me, grumbling and complaining. I was asking God if His answered prayer was really what He wanted for me. I asked God, “Do you really want me to stay?” Very discontent. Very ungrateful.

God’s word for me this year is COURAGE.  I was thinking it was courage for things that He wanted me to pursue this year, courage to pursue bigger things that will help me accomplish my own personal goals. However, God’s thoughts were different. I did not expect at all.

All my grumbling weren’t because of my work. It was my heart. God asked me, Do you have the courage to stay in the company where I put you even if it is an environment that you are not used to and that you will struggle to adjust?

“So if you are tempted to walk away, make sure to seek God, because you never know what he might do if you have the courage to stay. ” – Divine Direction by Craig Groeschel

And He did not end there. Slowing down was not just in terms of work but on everything. I was planning so many things that I just wanted to keep going. I wanted to accomplish a lot that I can’t just slow down. But God wanted me to slow down on everything, no exceptions. And that was the most difficult. I had so many things I wanted to do this year – starting to build my company, starting a business back home. But then God said, drop everything. Pause.

That was it! Courage…to slow down. It’s so hard. I felt like I’m going to run out of time if I pause. I felt like I will be losing my opportunity. But who am I to question God’s ways? I need to be courageous in pursuing a life that takes time to relax, to rest, to think, to reflect, to prepare, to plan.

By God’s grace, I obeyed.

How has it been so far? I’m so happy to say that it has been so liberating. I didn’t know that God can truly give me this season to just enjoy the flowers on the wayside. I am learning to appreciate boredom. I have more time now to reflect. I don’t feel the pressure of making things happen. I don’t think about things that are years and years ahead. I am learning to just think about the next few days. Importantly, I am enjoying this time of letting God use this season of my life for His work.

Indeed, there is a time for everything. We all just need the courage to embrace that.

There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

 a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
   a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
  a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

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When God said, “Rest.”

September 2, 2015 – This day will linger a bit in me.

This was the day when God spoke to me not just once but 4 times in one day Psalm 46:10 – “Be still.”

Days before this, my schedule was just so crazy. Work was crazy tiring and I had commitments after office hours and weekends. It was just non-stop that I could not even find time cleaning my own room.

Do you believe that God does care about your physical condition? When He showed to me Psalm 46 in so many places more than once, I thought, there must be something in there! It’s either I ignore Him or obey Him. And I know God. He is always clear. So, by His grace, I chose to obey Him. And indeed, I’m so glad I did!

You see, I didn’t know what was ahead of me. I didn’t know how things will turn out weeks after that day. But God knows. He knows I will never have enough strength to endure the busyness ahead of me if I didn’t stop doing things that are stealing my time to rest. I would have gotten so worn out that I might end up getting so sick or if not, become a one big grumbling soul.

I know how important rest is. I know how important to have a quiet time and just be still with God in the midst of busyness. But I’ve never been more appreciative of rest until these past weeks. Resting is not just relaxing and doing nothing. Resting is total dependence on God hoping that when you wake up the next day, you will have renewed strength for another long day ahead.

When God tells us to rest, He is serious about it. He knows how much we can only do each day. He knows our limitations that He allows us to have a rest.

So, if you’ve been too busy doing things that you think are important or you think could not wait, try to assess again what your real priorities are. We can only do enough each day. We just have to make sure we don’t compromise the most important things including our own physical health.

By the seventh day, God completed His work which He had done, and He rested on the seventh day from all His work which He had done. Then God blessed the seventh day and sanctified it, because in it He rested from all His work which God had created ]and made. – Genesis 2:2-3

Unwind at Kapitolyo

 

My roommie, Kim and I decided to spend a Friday night at Kapitoloyo in Pasig City to have a relaxing dinner and just to unwind.

Kapitolyo is famous for a lot of good restaurants in different cuisines – not just the food but also the ambiance of the places. We walked down East Kapitolyo Drive, looking for the Seoul Sisters place famous for their very delicious dukbokki. Sadly, we could not find the place. Not sure if we were on the right street or it’s not there anymore. But anyway, we found some other good options until we decided to go for Thai. We got attracted with the little, cute restaurant.

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We ordered Tom Yum Soup with chicken, Pad Thai and a set of spring rolls. We enjoyed the Tom Yum the most which we requested to be mild spicy only. The Pad Thai was also good and the spring rolls serving was a lot. It was a satisfying Thai meal with some left over for to go.

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After dinner, we wanted to try Epic Coffee Roastery. The place was very relaxing and creative. We checked the place but then couldn’t find anything to order from their menu so we decided to just go to Starbucks nearby as Kim was craving for some Raspberry  Blackcurrant.

We went to Capitol Commons where there are new restaurants, mostly fine dining opened. Starbucks was full and so we just decided to stroll around with our drinks. And to our surprise, there is a path walk with bench seats at the sides where you can hang out and relax. Better than inside Starbucks!

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Holiday

Two long weekends in a row is just so so so so cool!

I’d never had such a restful weekend since the middle of the year. Two days of rest over the weekend were never enough. Not that I’m complaining, but just really happy that I get to enjoy another long weekend.

My roommie and I went to our favorite, “quiet” mall to just unwind. Had some Chinese for our late lunch, watched the movie, “Thor” which was really entertaining and did some little shoes and bread shopping.

I just thank God that tomorrow is just Saturday, and I still have 2 days to just relax and do the things I enjoy doing.

Here’s a photo of our bread shopping. I had my first Earl Grey Latte croughnut.

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Overtime

 

I’m not the type of person who would stay in the office very late. But since I got back from Canada,  I’ve been basically doing it.  Even with the long working hours here in Manila, it’s never enough. I never thought it would never be. haha!

But anyway, I’m just glad I come through this week not even feeling so tired. I feel actually still so relaxed. Well, the advantage of not working onsite is you don’t feel much pressure with work and with a different time zone, you don’t feel like everything is urgent. Hehe….

Though, I miss Canada a lot. I’m still hoping, one day, I’m going to smell Canada again. 🙂

Thank you Lord for a great week!