Feeling a bit low…

I feel a bit low today. Sad, I suppose.

I was so excited on something when it became uncertain again.

My heart sank.

But it’s okay. I will continue looking up to God.

He never failed me. He will never start now.

I know He will continue to enable me as I continue to wait.

Feel so uncertain, so unsure, so clueless.

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Arrival

I arrived this morning here in Manila. Everyone in the flight were very excited as the plane landed except for me. My case is different. They’re visiting. I’m a returning resident. The thought of now knowing when I can come back to Canada or if I will be back at all is the reason why I’m not that excited. Don’t get me wrong, I miss everyone here in Philippines. But, I would be excited if I was like one of those who just went home for visit.

Well, I’m still grateful to God for He has really blessed me with such opportunity. I’ll always be grateful.

I met several people on my arrival day. My best friend, Nong Iman picked me up at the airport. Then, I had lunch with my sister in Christ, Rhodes at Almon Marina. Then,  had dinner with Nong Iman and his parents and Tupe. I had a great time with all of them.

And tonight, I feel so sad. 😦 Everyone has moved on with their lives here. While I come back to the same life when I left. I dunno, just a thought.

Time to rest now. Tomorrow, I’m going to face part of my world.

Thank you Lord for a very smooth and safe arrival. 🙂

Heavy

-hearted…

I really had a great time tonight. Celebrated Ate Jeany’s birthday and somehow a send-off for me. And now, I feel so sad and heavy-hearted. I don’t want to go home. 😦 Not because I don’t miss my family. I miss them so much and I’m very much looking forward to spending time with them. It’s just that this time, I feel like I’m going to leave a part of my heart here in Canada. I just feel so sad… 😦