I’m just a bit emotional. I felt like someone broke up with me. Though, I really haven’t experienced one. Haha! But anyway, I just feel like it.

Last 2013, was my first time to resign from the first company that I worked for more than 8 years. But when I left, it was a different kind of emotion. I felt free. Here’s a throwback. 😀

Just this Friday, I said my farewell to the second company I have worked for almost 4 years. And the reason I’m writing now is because I just needed an outlet of how I feel and let it be. I really don’t like dramas but you know what, this is my blog site. I just  want to be dramatic right now. LOL.

Anyway, leaving was my personal choice. It was time to move forward and explore other industries for my own growth. I had to choose growth over comfort. However, leaving this time was not easy.

In my years at the company, I had moved from one team to another. Worked with different people on different projects. Had multiple bosses. Change was super constant. But the last seven months were different. I became part of a team wherein we could all grow together. And to become a part of something that evolves and improves, it’s not just about work. It’s really about building relationship. It was just getting better. And that’s why it was sad to leave. And probably, it’s just me. It’s something I didn’t want to lose.

I just feel like a portion of my life right now got ripped. #drama … lol… But, that’s how I feel. It’s going to take a while. I’ll definitely miss our daily stand-ups and sometimes, excessive clapping. 😀 I will miss grooming  & retro sessions where everyone just really gets “passionate”.  😀  I will miss the crunch time moments when it’s close to end of sprint and everyone just jumps in to help. Just so many things going on everyday that I will surely miss. But most of all, I will miss the team and being part of the team. I will miss working with people who turned out to be friends.

Okay enough with this drama…haha… but those are all sincere words… I’m not going too far so I know I will still see them.

Next week, I will be walking down the hall, seeing unfamiliar faces. And I might still be sad. It’s going to be weird for a while, I guess. We’ll see…

National Leave the Office Early Day!


Feeling a bit low…

I feel a bit low today. Sad, I suppose.

I was so excited on something when it became uncertain again.

My heart sank.

But it’s okay. I will continue looking up to God.

He never failed me. He will never start now.

I know He will continue to enable me as I continue to wait.

Feel so uncertain, so unsure, so clueless.



I’m so down today. One of those days that I feel like I’ve got no one

Just sayin…



I arrived this morning here in Manila. Everyone in the flight were very excited as the plane landed except for me. My case is different. They’re visiting. I’m a returning resident. The thought of now knowing when I can come back to Canada or if I will be back at all is the reason why I’m not that excited. Don’t get me wrong, I miss everyone here in Philippines. But, I would be excited if I was like one of those who just went home for visit.

Well, I’m still grateful to God for He has really blessed me with such opportunity. I’ll always be grateful.

I met several people on my arrival day. My best friend, Nong Iman picked me up at the airport. Then, I had lunch with my sister in Christ, Rhodes at Almon Marina. Then,  had dinner with Nong Iman and his parents and Tupe. I had a great time with all of them.

And tonight, I feel so sad. 😦 Everyone has moved on with their lives here. While I come back to the same life when I left. I dunno, just a thought.

Time to rest now. Tomorrow, I’m going to face part of my world.

Thank you Lord for a very smooth and safe arrival. 🙂




I really had a great time tonight. Celebrated Ate Jeany’s birthday and somehow a send-off for me. And now, I feel so sad and heavy-hearted. I don’t want to go home. 😦 Not because I don’t miss my family. I miss them so much and I’m very much looking forward to spending time with them. It’s just that this time, I feel like I’m going to leave a part of my heart here in Canada. I just feel so sad… 😦