Standing Still

It’s been more than a week since I moved to Canada.  Even before I came here, I’ve been submitting tons of job applications. I got few responses, some from companies, some from recruitment agencies. It’s been more than 5 months now that I’m unemployed and I’m kinda feeling the pressure to find a job. Not to mention, I have expenses to pay and I’m not in Manila anymore. It’s been quite tough finding the right job here for the skill set that I have. Experiences and skills required are very specific that it’s very difficult to fit in.

I have moments of discouragements and doubts. I desperately want to work immediately before this month ends and I feel like things are not going my way.  But I don’t want to let my fear or anxieties swallow me. I have a big God.

I’ve been reading the Book of Joshua since I arrived here. I just felt I could relate to Joshua’s journey. God was fulfilling His promise of giving the land to the Israelites but the journey was never easy. Joshua and the rest of his army had to defeat a lot of nations before receiving the fullness of the land. I feel I’m in the same battle. I have to defeat other applicants to be able to receive the best that God wants to give me.

But what comforted me was that the victories of the Israelites were all because of what God did. All they did was to attack but it was God who handed to them in defeat their enemies.  It was God who gave them the victory.  And I believe God will do the same for me. All I need to do is to submit the best of my resume, go to interviews – never give up. And, God will take care of the rest. Indeed, only God can give me favor through men. Only God can move the heart of the companies.

This job hunting journey is never about me or the job I’ll have but still and always about God, who He is and what He can do. He deserves the glory.

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In one of my quiet times this week, I told God, “If you can make the sun stand still for a day,  then, you can  give me  the best job.” 

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The sun stopped in the middle of the sky and delayed going down about a full day.  There has never been a day like it before or since, a day when the Lord listened to a human being. Surely the Lord was fighting for Israel! – Joshua 10:13-14

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37 Days

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It’s been 37 days of being “unemployed”. As I stay at home, I realize there are a lot of things that need to be done at home just like being in the office. Well, except the pressure and strict deadlines. However, I can always take a pause and have some rest. Something, I can seldom do when I work. Oh well, I don’t think I should compare working in the office and being unemployed – staying at home. Just doesn’t make sense! Haha!

I’m truly grateful to be able to rest for the past month and do the things I’ve missed doing during my busy season in the corporate world. There are still a lot of things that I want to do, however, I’ve also been thinking of hopefully going back to a “hopefully” 8-hour day job. God has been opening doors and letting me wait on some things. It’s totally liberating to just let God take control of everything and just do what He wants me to do. I don’t have to give myself a headache to think over things when He knows already what’s ahead.

Today, I just want to sleep in after I wash a pile of dishes from cooking good meals. These things I haven’t done in awhile.

I thank God for the REST He has given me. I really hope everyone can enjoy such blessing especially those who are so burned out with work.

 

 

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I must say, today is officially my first day of being unemployed after the long holiday.

My last day at my work of more than 8 years was last Dec. 31.

Today is the first day of waking up not thinking of work and the things I need to do at work.

I had to make a schedule on how my day should go as I don’t want to spend each day lazily being so unproductive.

I’m excited on this journey as to how, where, what and when – will God take me to something new.

I’m happy also that I will have more time in my writing now. So much things I can do and so much time I can spend with the Lord!

My work is a gift from God. And this time to rest, is a gift from God also.